I lost my sweet girl tonight….
Knowing this was inevitable – Her joints swollen, her body frail. She was not able to get up. She had not moved all day. We tried to pick her up she would yelp in pain. It was time.
At our home , My children gathered round Bella, we hugged her, kissed her… Told her how much we loved her and how we wish it was not to be.
My children left and my friends Jade/Vet. and Kacie/Vet. came in to our home and we loved her a little more. They administered the medicine and just like that it was over. It was very peaceful except for my crying.
It is horrible to see your friend in pain and not be able to fix it. Helpless.
I struggled with this decision and am still struggling (even though I know it was the right thing to do – she would not have made it much longer).
I don’t think I was ever so proud of my Bella than the day I saw her run full on with 3 legs only a week after her surgery. I thought we had it made……I loved that girl.
Thank all of you for your encouragement and support and information throughout these past few months. It gave me hope and the support I needed as we traveled this unknown road.
Hugs to all of you who have been down this road and those of you who are about to travel it for the first time.
Bella’s mom – Jennifer
http://www.fourpawsinheaven.com/poetry/p-lastbattle.html
My Sweet Bella 2008-2011
on June 7, 2011 at 1:42 AM
Oh, Jennifer. I am so so sorry for your loss. I know the struggles you are having, the helplessness, and the wrenching grief.
Rest in peace, Bella.
on June 7, 2011 at 2:02 AM
Oh Jennifer, I’m so sorry. I knew this was coming, but still…Bella the beauty had a great life with you all. I’ve enjoyed reading about her new life with you and was so happy it was a win-win for everyone.
I wish she had been given more time, more good and happy moments. I truly do. Thank you so much for loving her the way you did and for being strong enough to listen to her needs. She would thank you if she could.
Shari
on June 7, 2011 at 2:37 AM
Jennifer.. I know the grief you feel as I have faced it with furkids of my own in the past. We send our most heartfelt condolences to you in your loss of Bella. Please know that Cooper and his whole pack are thinking of you and wish that we could bear some of the pain for you. Rest in peace sweet Bella.. run free at the bridge
Coopsdad
on June 7, 2011 at 3:32 AM
Oh Jennifer, thank you for loving her so much that you were willing to make the hard decision and let her go. I join with the others in wishing her sunny skies and rabbits to chase on all four legs. We mourn with you.
Susan
on June 7, 2011 at 3:49 AM
we are so sad at the loss of bella. sometimes it seems all the efforts and prayers just don’t bring the outcome we are wanting. bella was brave, joyful and a true inspiration. hopefully the happy memories you shared will eventually help to dry the tears. love never ends.
charon & gayle
on June 7, 2011 at 4:06 AM
I’m so sorry to hear of Bella’s passing. She fought a brave battle and was a true Tripawd hero.
on June 7, 2011 at 4:13 AM
So very sorry to hear of your loss! I am sure she felt all of that love surrounding her! Heart healing wishes for you and yours!
on June 7, 2011 at 5:13 AM
Such a beautiful girl. So sorry you did not get more time together, but I am sure you gave her a great life. RIP Bella. Run free.
Jackie, Abby’s mom
on June 7, 2011 at 12:44 PM
I am so very sorry, so sorry.
Elizabeth
on June 7, 2011 at 1:05 PM
Sorry for your lose. Whatever Bella loved to do, that is what she is doing RIGHT NOW. It’s easy to think of the pain but challenge yourself to think of the amazing memories. You did the right thing and Bella knows it too. The good thing now is Bella can watch you all day everyday….no matter where you go. So sorry
on June 7, 2011 at 3:57 PM
Bless you for giving Bella such a wonderful life, and thank you for sharing her story here. It is certain to help others going down the same road.
May sweet Bella run free of pain and rest in peace at the Rainbow Bridge.
on June 7, 2011 at 5:29 PM
Bella, you will be deeply missed.
We send our deepest condolences to your family, we know their hearts are hurting. No matter what, always know that your people went above and beyond and for those brief weeks you were living a pain-free, good life again. Every minute is so precious, you will always be a reminder of that.
May your spirit shine on and the good times you shared bring comfort now and always. We’ll miss you.
on June 9, 2011 at 4:57 PM
Oh Jennifer, with tears in my eyes I write to say how very sad I am to hear that your sweet girl has gone on her peaceful journey to become a beautiful angel. She will have many angels watching over her and she will send them down to watch over you & your family.
Even though you didn’t have as much with her, the time you did have was spent loving her and giving her the very best care a mommy can give…She loves & trusts you & it is because you love her so much …you let her go to run free with the Tripawds before us…
She will leave her 3 paw prints deep in your hearts forever… We are all here for you. Sending our love & kisses….May the happy memories brighten your days and lighten your hearts…
Hugs,
~~Carol & Indiana~~